please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
I just read the last blog I posted and realized how Satan has connived his way into those situations. He’s been feeding me lies and I’ve been listening.
I’m not back to my peaceful, carefree self. Quite the opposite in fact.
Today was the first day in a long time that I’ve been able to breathe. Really breathe.
He’s changing my heart. He’s breaking me. He’s not letting me sit in my sin. He’s making me deal with things. His telling me the truth I don’t want to hear. HE’S LOVING ME
To be honest, it sucks. But deep down, it’s wonderful. He’s drawing me closer to Himself.
It’s more real this time.
“Alison, you’re not God. STOP TRYING TO BE” -a friend reminded me of this truth a few days ago and the words have been ringing in my ears ever since. My pride is awful.
I can’t control this. Period. End of story. So I need to stop thinking I can.
Matthew 28:11. I’m still learning this.
Giving up control is hard.
But the Lord is so much greater than all of this. He’s redeeming. He conquers all sin. I’m not worthy of any of His blessings but for some reason He gives them to me anyway.
Praise Him for putting this storm in my life. Without it, I would never realize His infinite goodness.
It’s so freeing.
Free.
